Switching it UP!!! Self-Realization (Part 1)

I originally had this blog set up a specific way, having each day dedicated to a topic. I really wanted to do it this way because it was easier for me to talk about the topics in some sort of order. But something has happened over the past few days that has changed my mindset and belief system about myself greatly and how I handle and organize things. So now I will be writing a little bit more uninhibited and not sticking so much to a schedule, but allowing what wants to be written to manifest. SO, with that being said... I would like to share my experience with all who are interested.

For the longest time, I have struggled with being me. I believe everyone at some point in time struggles with this. Whether its your parents putting mental binds on you, or friends, teachers, anyone; how we react shapes and constructs our future selves and we end up living a life we never really wanted. But we decided to live this way because we didn't feel like dealing with the wrath others could have and blatantly told us they would afflict us with.



Then we take certain mindsets and belief system with us into adulthood and we afflict them on the people around us and eventually our own children, without even knowing we are doing it. We just believe that's the way it suppose to be. Then the day you want to be your true self, no one is there to support you because they like you just they way you are. Yet, something inside you knows that what you have become was never what you were meant to be and everyone else is just crabs in the bucket of life, dragging you down when they see you trying to rise up out of your own self. People don't like to be alone, ever. It is the make up of our Ego. Ego struggles to live every day. And the real you who is a piece of God, just patiently waits for the day that you finally choose it instead of the Ego.

I faced this issue many times. Its one of the reasons I started this blog. As a child, I never liked being told what to do because I was well equipped to handling myself. And as a child, I wasn't afraid to ask for help nor giving it, until I learned that this world did not think the same way. The world was purposely cruel and if someone seemed nice, they were nice only because they had a hidden agenda. At some point, you would have to pay them back for their kindness.

I have a friend who I discuss this with all the time. Could people actually be nice, giving, caring without any hidden intentions? To be honest, I don't know. But I know people who try their best to and I admire them because it helps me take one more step toward that kind of living and loving.

Either way, about 2 weeks ago, a friend of mine suggested I listen to Dr. Wayne W. Dyre. He is a therapist, turned author/motivational speaker, turned spiritual leader. I completely enjoy him! He just makes sense. He, as well as other authors who's books I have gained much insight from, made me question my mind, how it thinks, how it processes information, how it learns, grow, and then reacts. I watched his PBS special called "Excuses Begone." It was amazing and amazingly simple. Here is the special :

In "Excuses Begone," Wayne maps out the top 18 excuses he gathered from a survey he held on his website. These were the top 18 results received when people were asked why they have not done the things they desired to do:
1) It will be difficult2) It's going to be risky3) It will take a long time4) There will be family drama5) I don't deserve it6) It's not my nature7) I can't afford t8) No one will help me9) It has never happened before10) I'm not strong enough11) I'm not smart enough12) I'm too old (or not old enough)13) The rules won't let me14) It's too big15) I don't have the energy16) It's my personal family history17) I'm too busy18) I'm too scared
He addressed all 18 excuses in such a manner that began to break down certain mental blocks I had. Then he brought out a special guest named Dan. I won't even tell you about Dan because I want you to see the video and find out why Dan is so awesome. One YouTuber said:
And Dan is truly incredible. He kinda makes everyone completely feel dumb for having excuses but he also provides a strength to understand that nothing should stop you from achieving the highest and purest desire of your heart. Yet there is an amazing "catch" to all of this. Dr. Dyre is a great student of LaoTzu, a Chinese philosopher who wrote The Tao Te Ching about 2,500 years ago. Yet when reading these 81 verses, which some scholars have acclaimed to be the wises words ever written, it is difficult to completely understand what LaoTzu is trying to say because it almost sounds like his writings are a prescription for laziness. But there is surely a deeper meaning behind it all. Check out Dr. Wayne Dyer: Living the Wisdom of the Tao. In the above video playlist, there is a video called, "Wayne Dyer Summarises The Tao. Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life (Part 1 of 2)" and  "Wayne Dyer Summarises The Tao. Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life (Part 2 of 2)." These are Dr. Dyre's thoughts on The Tao Te Ching. Check it out. It made me think.
While looking at other videos on Youtube on Dr. Dyre, I came across a movie called The Shift - Ambition to Meaning, which he made back in 2007. It was produced by Hay House which is the largest publisher of spirituality and new age writings. This movie was sweet. I loved the approach they took in putting the movie together. It actually seemed like some of the things that happened in the movie, actually happened in real life and that's how the movie came about. The following is the movie and then the original interviews that lead to the manifestation of the movie.

I hope everyone can enjoy these video. They are rather lengthy but the information and insight they provide truly does help. 
Tomorrow, I will continue writing how these videos and others made me come face to face with myself. Something changed. Something happened. And it was amazing, weird, calming, yet made me nervous all at the same time. It's not something that I can't explain but I will try my best. I'm showing you the videos in the order that my revelation happened (sorta) so you can see what I was studying when my mental walls started to crumble, leaving a cold, uncovered, free feeling in my head, that I quickly felt was trying to be covered up again by something that didn't want me to understand what it meant to be a part of a greater whole. When the binds crumbled, I heard how quickly my inner voices tried to stop me and tell me negative things. And there "It"(the "Free One" as I call it) was standing in front of me, showing me all the build up of false ideas that had me in a mental constipation, so to speak. 
When you realize you really have no excuse for not being the greatest idea that God had, it kinda puts you in a place of humility and forgiveness. It puts things in a certain kind of perspective we are almost forbidden to know because if we did, the world would be to everyone the paradise it was designed to be. 
Enjoy the footage. Namaste.